I was too pumped for the grilled cheese food truck at breathe festival this weekend

I was too pumped for the grilled cheese food truck at breathe festival this weekend

One is that they teach you love is everything. and when someone opens their mouth to tell you they love you, that you better receive it, and what comes with it, no matter how much you’re still trying to figure love out. Two is that when you don’t want it, when you don’t love to the extent of how someone loves you- you’re a prude. a tease. Three is that they tell you that “no” is only used towards those you don’t want holding your hand. They never tell you that it is okay to say “no” to someone who has held you while you were broken.

Four is that they never tell you that
love isn’t always nice
and it isn’t always respectful.
they never tell you that love
doesn’t ask for more
than you want to give.

Five is they tell you that when someone makes
a big grand gesture of love -
drives three hundred miles to see you,
that you should love him back.
they only tell you what he deserves is more
than what you’re giving.
that what he did for you deserves
more than just holding his hand
and wishing him well.

Six is that sometimes love makes you feel trapped
and saying yes is the only way to keep love.
and they make you feel that no means you lose it all.
no means you could never be loved again.

Seven is that I am telling you now,
when love asks to see more,
when love asks to do more
than you ever asked for,
it is okay to say no,
it is okay to express that you’re uncomfortable -
that saying no doesn’t make you a prude -
and it doesn’t make you less of a person.

Eight is that they are all wrong.
You don’t owe anyone anything
and you don’t have to love
someone who says they love you.
and you don’t always have to believe love.

Nine is that you will be loved again (via amandaspoetry)

She belonged in libraries and book stores. She left her heart between the pages of her books.

His blow-ups weren’t rational, but he said they were my fault. I didn’t think I had done anything wrong but that didn’t mean he didn’t think so, so I accepted that I must have done something, because in that way, there was a logical cause-and-effect explanation for his actions. And, crucially, it’s not just anger. It’s anger wrapped in fear, guilt, self-doubt, helplessness, sadness —so you shift from defensive mode into comfort mode, where you are the person who is calm and caring and reassuring. You’re the one who has it together. He’s the one who needs help, and you’re the one who’s helping. You learn to work around his triggers and do the things to soothe him and to leave parties quickly and to pick your battles.